Twisting & tossing around!

2010-12-14T16:54:00.000-08:00

when i was a kid, i was taught to save and do whatever to be thrifty. As i grew up, i did what i was taught. But soon realised that i was overdoing it. Oh well, the 22mths in ns really gave me a hard 'knock' on the head. though im left with 5mths, this is the 1st time i understood what was fear actually about. It aint about confinement or tough training or whatever related to ns, its about... One of my clerks told me, So what if you may have all the cash in the world, but there one thing that you'll nv get. Someone who is nv true. Nth is more impt than health, was i being overly ambitious in the past?

2010-11-05T05:54:00.000-07:00

its not just an ordinary 3 letter alphabet. its the beginning of everything.

.

2010-10-24T02:30:00.000-07:00

Skies are clear. Weathers' fine. Good to go.

2010-09-09T00:42:00.000-07:00

Yay! im 21!. oh well. its just an ordinary day right. haha. Its time to get back on track. 7 mths plus left to being out. Think far look further!

2010-07-09T21:00:00.000-07:00

Girls = sex??

Thats the equation that was hovering my mind after ENLISTMENT. lol

12am today marks the moment of my life as a 1 yr soldier.. 9 mths 31days left.

I starting to disagree with that equation.. in fact im feeling guilty.

Frankly speaking.. i dont even know why. Thats the weird part.

2010-05-17T23:47:00.000-07:00

zm i seriously despise you!

11 mths odd left to even getting started on my goals. No use whining and sobbing like a small kid. Come on July.. Please arrive soon. I need motivation to even move on from where i've stopped.

13 July09. It may seem like as though its just a date, "whats so great about that date!!". Thats the day i feel like i'm in coma. Everything seems so real yet so fake..

2010-02-17T03:48:00.000-08:00

1st day at duty...

Its a blessing that i can even have access to internet in camp! hahaha.

2010-01-17T00:50:00.000-08:00

Enough of the days when i peep behind classroom doors for the girl.
Enough of the days when i tried so hard to study when my grades seriously suck in secondary school days to get to np accountancy.
Enough of the days of fooling arnd. ( gained nth in the end. felt guilty for no apparent reason. LOL)
Enough of the days when ppl praise me for the hardwork i've done( holding multiple part time jobs thou im not really in need of anything)
Enough of the days when i let fate to push me along.
(FYI i nv believed in fate. One moment i suck, the other im flying)
Enough of the days of doing nth productive. ( like now?????)

I must create history. I will create history. I MUST work harder than anyone else.
2015. Thats the deadline.

Oh ya jojo! bet you'll pop by once in awhile.. Rmb our 10yrs pact k!

I'm no longer a personal assistant. yeahh! LOL. there goes all the priviledges
i wanna lead an extraordinary conscript life. I've lead one for the past mths.
Being in the elite n being with the elites.
Now im nothing but just an ordinary admin soldier.

I dont expect anything for my 21st. the few stuffs i'll do......
hmm..

1. Open a trading account. (i've got my cdp up and ready liao. Let with this to trade)
2. Open a Chequeing account.
3. Get another licence. (: (Class 4 probably. FYI- im not interested in bikes.. Darn noisy)
4. Set myself another total net worth target.
5. Relook my current investment plans.
6. Push myself harder. By 2014/15.. my 1st car. Fully paid by urs truely
7. Career above all. Girls come ltr. (unless its... let keep this aside 1st)
8. Prepare myself for audit work. (i'll work full time n study part time. No pain no gain.)
9. Be a different person. (: Look abit different perhaps?

till then.. I NEED MORE allowance!! cant be getting frm mum n dad right. LOL

2010-01-17T00:15:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5XaeFcWPGXE

everything is explanatory.

2009-11-14T12:30:00.000-08:00

Thk God.. For giving me this post. Hope it'll last for the coming 18mths. -12May 2011.

~Visionary.Lover. Dreamer. Fighter. Legend. Icon.

If i believe you can, you can!

2009-10-25T19:40:00.000-07:00

okay. got the post that anyone cld possibly want!
plans. plans. plans.!!
say hello to six pacs! im working on it! ;)

2009-10-09T14:45:00.000-07:00

empty. thats the word. pls for heaven's sake post me out asap. i cant take this any longer!!
nxt week's the interview. the only chance to beat the hierachy and find a meaning in ns life!!

2009-09-15T12:35:00.000-07:00

Déjà vu thats what i call it. Seen too much. known too much.
1yr 7mths to go.. wondering whr will i get posted to. results will be out coming fri. Thou i cant stay for long, at least i've been there. Review will be done nxt tue. How the following 1yr 7mth will be spent. Beginning to look at stuffs with a different prospective. that shld be good right. Peeps i've met along my block leave asking me hows ns blarblarblar. all i have to say is to take care of yourself inside and train hard b4 getting in. I mean REAL hard if you're in the enhanced leadership batch. U'll get what i mean soon.. I've seen guys falling one by one inside. Till today it still send shivers down my spine. Train hard. prep your bod for it. you'll be fine. Think i shld bid the days to clubbing goodbye? Trying to avoid even the occasional alcohol for isotonic drinks? At least after 2 mths frm tekong i've learnt smth.. Do yourself a favour, treasure your body. Thats the best investment ever.
This is Pte ZM Wong signing out.

2009-06-21T23:25:00.000-07:00

goodbye being emo.
hello future! (:

im anticipating.
weird that why i din get pns(pre -ns syndrome) uh. ;)

2009-05-13T12:21:00.000-07:00

A glance at the big picture.
I know what i want..

2009-05-08T00:35:00.000-07:00

exactly 2 months and 4days to enlistment..

Feelings?? Excited, anticipating, anxious and at times dreading..
everyone i have to go thru this. At least for now i've decided to try my best during this 9weeks frm 13jul to get into OCS..
Frankly speaking i've ALOT of issues that i've yet to settle but sadly cant...
OKAY ZM!
From this post onwards.. i'll cut dwn on working at gv.. which i feel is rather...... HAHAHA! better nt to say at this point of time. and get stuffs settled.
I really hope i can earn more man. Balancing inflows and outflows aint that easy after all. sian
anyways.. went for interview at police cantonment complex this morning which lasted like arnd 7hours?? met afew potential officers over there.
er... okay. at least this visit wld change the impression i have of the force in me?? haha!
*OKAY! decided! 2yrs at tekong for me! after that.. auditor! gonna rough my hands up for that.
optimistic optimistic..

2009-04-18T23:33:00.000-07:00

its coming soon (:

2009-03-27T12:37:00.000-07:00

After being down and way out of form for the past few weeks FINALLY i've get it all sorted out.
Instead of being unproductive and dreading every single day that passes by without any significant income stream, i've got a plan.....
I'm gonna scale mt faber by FOOT! drive to the bottom of the damned hill and scale up! hmm lets say.. either b4 sunrise or sunset. and bask myself into the magnifico view that i've been missing out while i was uber busy doing with crappy stuffs that i truely didnt enjoy!
I'm gonna jog all the way from zouk to esplanade after sunrise! spend my time stoning there at esplanade!! LOL.
Spend more time with nature!
im so gonna do it.. so gonna do it..
Been spending the past 4years trying to build a so called 'nest' for myself, working part time like some goondu!missing out on so much stuffs. At times i wld wonder.. what the heck wld i do when im rich? when i have simply anything that wealth cld bring me?wont everything be meaningless and dull for me???
He was right.. SHE was right! so what if u have all the damned money in the world!?

i wanna get enlisted like NOW! the process is excruciating.....

2009-03-20T07:30:00.000-07:00

Pass & completed Accountancy Course.
Nxt mth. Associate Financial Planning Certification and Graduation ceremony.
3-4 mths frm now. National Service Enlistment!
wao! events are happening fast n furious uh.

Simply shut ur eyes..
Treat it as if it doesnt exist.

2009-03-18T12:37:00.000-07:00

Okay here i im, with my nose flowing like theres no tml! drowsy? sleepy? sore throat? i got it all.
But oh well. meeting bud for gym session at calif novena ltr. IM SO GONNA TRAIN N JOG TILL THE DAMN FLU GETS AWAY! NTH CAN STOP ME! HAHAHA
Oh well.. ytd's fp class at capitol was......... uber OUTCAST! i cant wait for it to end. All i want is to get the fcukin' certificate n out i go! then get my ass into ns! 1yr10mth! then OUT! as an associate auditor n studyin part time for like 3yrs! the skies gonna be blue then i presume.
At times im wondering.. ppl during attachment learn stuffs related to their course. For me its more inclined towards office politics! wtf right! oh well its over. glad i survived that.

Okay i admit it! 'PNS' (Pre NationalServive Syndrome) is creeping into me.
At times i wld really love to enlist asap. the fun living in the wild n such.
But the other side of me wld tell me to just 'zhao keng' thru everything n get into
PES C(Office duties) so that i can like take a part time degree in the meanwhile so that i dont have to chiong that mug aft ord. I have no control over this crap man. Nxt mth. CMPB again. im so gonna like tell them hav rashes uh. lasik uh. see how la. But everything got PES A n napfa silver. LOLL. i've also been training like for years to get into OCS(officer cadet sch) or smth. Now the last min decision to slack off the 1yr 10mth.. i really dunno. Like what i've always said. U want respect n dignity in ur 1yr 10mth stint or being FINANCIALLY HAPPY but no respect or anything during ns? I really dont mind being in chiong units. i really dont mind. but think again. I see my friends driving merc n changing cars like theres no tomorrow, owning his own condo at the age of just 29? Which one wld u prefer. But of course. I want my own achievements. I dont wanna rely on anyone. Dont wanna rely on him. At most i'll let my bros takeover. I've even laid out plans way up till age 45. omg right! Dont wanna be the old zm durin secondary sch days. U think i've forgotten about it?? NO! to me its a lesson. A lesson phrase. I will climb up immediately after i fall.

Supposed to meet jojo ytd for F1 with our ride. But in the end cancelled the entire thing. Cos felt kinda drowsy. It has been quite some time since i last touched the steering wheel. But shld be fine la. 1 week. LOLLL. broke record. At least in my whole live i can say i've driven a Suzuki(forgot the exact model alr. Was just 15then) Nissan Sunny EX, Subaru STI, Nissan Latio, Nissan Cefiro, a damn small lorry(dad's company van then. was my practice vehicle when i was 14+), subaru impreza and finally toyota wish i think. But of course handling wise im most familar with the one thats readily accesible to me la. my wish! LOL thou chubby it may look, but its engine is fierce! trust me! LOL. major concern is the fuel consumption at speeds over 100km/h. It can BURN UR WALLET! thats why i seldom speed (:
mb driving arnd tonight with khakis after gym?? plannin nia.

Okay. Shall take a nap b4 heading to the gym ltr. BODY COMBAT! thats the class im gonna join ltr. LOLL with flu n crap. agrr.. see how it goes la.

Theres no turning back.

2009-03-02T23:54:00.000-08:00

low profile!

2009-02-12T11:33:00.001-08:00

I can do it.
I can do it!
dont look back!

2009-01-12T23:48:00.000-08:00

okay! Had my 1st operation since i was born.
The feeling was..... unexplainable.
Can relive the experience whenever i shut my eyes now.
The numerous numbing drops they gave me.
The horrifying sound of laser.
The red and green beams of laser.
The smell of burning.
The ultra bright shed of light..
Witnessing the removal of smth that looks like a lens that i normally wear. But its nt that this case..

Oh well.. at least i know that sleeping pills dont work on me! LOL
Finally i've made up my mind! All thks to the 30mins or so darkness that i was made to be in. :S

Thats step 1...

Now for step 2. My plans ((:
Like it or nt! i do have plans..

oh well... counting dwn.
4-5 mths to enlistment.
1mth to medical checkup
2mths to graduation
2mths to starting AFP

so tired for now..

2009-01-08T00:45:00.000-08:00

FINALLY! i've got a plan (:
1 more mth to grad!
3 more mths to enlistment (if i cant get silver)
3 more mths to end of freedom! ):

oh well heck la! enjoy while i can! (:

2009-01-05T01:40:00.000-08:00

Yay! 2009 is here! lol.
Instead feeling better, im feeling worse. lol
think thats too many unsettled issue la. After that everything would be fine..
I've slowly thought it thru during the 2 weeks im away..

Oh well.. it least now i do believe that wishes and dreams really do come true.
No matter how wild or unrealistic it may be, it will!
Just cant describe it now.
Okayy now im gonna ease on working pt and spend some family and 'me' time.
its gonna be a long way.. a long wayy...

2008-12-22T23:45:00.000-08:00

RULE #1:People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2:Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continuing this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
Yepp. Who doesnt have?

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl older than you?
Dont really think so ba.. but who knows.

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love?
Till i meet someone better?

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
I'll spilt it up.
A portion for my family(i'll open a account for them as a whole), a portion into my savings, a portion to David, a portion to some good looking equities.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
Thats really hard to say la.. hah

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Both.

7. How do you define love?
Hooo~ thats tricky. its a mutual think man.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Oh well.. S'pore have alot of trees right! GO LOOK FOR ANOTHER ONE LAH! ahha

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
Yeaa why nt?

10. What makes you sad?
I tend to nt think of it man. So... haha!

11. Describe the person who has tagged you.
Oh its my ex-GV colleague/mei/ JAR-rina. haha

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
Close and good Friends, family and those helping me out now.

13. What is being regarded as the most important thing in your life?

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
I'll rather be poor than rich only if im married happily.
But nt that poor la. who wldnt want to provide the best for their family? LOL

15. What is your favourite colour.
Depends.

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, and both of them do the same, who would you pick?
Thats rather imposssible. Its either one or none. lol

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
That really depends on how horrible the thing is. Depends on whether its really an no option scenario or smth.

18. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
HAHAH! Would u think i'll type it out here?

19. If there is a choice between lover and friends,which will you choose?Friends? Lover?
Strike a balance.

20. Do you believe that there's "True Love"?
On tv dramas. YES.
But real life wise.. im nt that sure man.

From Jerinna.
(HUH can dont sabo? but rule leh.. I bet alot dont wanna do..
1-Jensen2-Yvonne3-Zhong ming4-Shirlyn5-Dai Kai )

From yours sincerely...
(BUSY RIGHT NOW!! have other stuffs to do! In fact i took 20 mins to copy and to paste then to editing and deleting all the prev answers. hHAHHA! )

2008-12-09T18:02:00.000-08:00

Its time to rock my body to its core!!
Regretted quiting NACC in my yr 1 days!
My New Year resolution...- to get back the bod i once had and desired!

Im so gonna redesign and implement my training regime!
No more slacking zm! think of the big picture!! OCS!
and so that even after ord, it'll be easy to maintain.

keep it. hide it. its nt the time! think of the big picture!!

2008-12-02T11:30:00.000-08:00

Primary School.....
Okay. after mugging the entire night for ct, i was linked to this class photo when we're like damn lil and innocent?? Pri 3?? HAHAHAH. All the fun, rivalry and everything!! HAHAHAH

Our long long long long time REALLY FOND memories! HAHAHAHHAHA!
told u im bad bad!! HAHAHA (:

hahahh! din expect this picture to appear man! hahaha! i've to search real hard for my copy! dunno whr i left it alrd!

oh oh and see! all thks to MS CHOO KIT YEE! i somehow managed to locate my classmates!

okayy! WHEN ARE WE MEETING UP??? HAHAHA (:

2008-11-19T00:25:00.000-08:00

Okayy. Had a super busy week! work work tutorials tutorials training training! I seriously miss sentosa! the sandy beaches!! i want to spend some time alone. away from everything for just afew hours i'll be contented.
went for swimming just now with my bros and the water was....
SUPER DUPER COLD! guess it'll all end before christmas. get my bronze and waa lah!
swam around like some penguin for 2 1/2 hours. lol. tired.
din join them for some last min grabs at the food festival or smth at expo!
wanted to finish up my fp tutorials at least and slowly digest my tax tut that i had earlier on..
oh well..
like i always say.
6mths towards ns...feel moody.
1 mth towards ns..feel like u've lost smth impt to u
1 week towards ns..like as if u're alone on this lil red dot!
1 day towards ns.....i'm doomed!
i'm even planning to pack up my table, drawer and everything!
im even gonna jot down everything impt! file it all in a file! incase of anything they'll know whr to find what and such. but of course i'll lock them up! hahah!
at least i've decided to be chiong for my ns! get into airforce/commando/ocs! ahaha!!
i wonder how it feels to jump frm a plane! wahaha! must try! lol.

oh well. i really need to pay attention during tutorials or even lectures. the workload are mounting. í officially declare nxt week as PAY ATTENTION AND STUDY HARD WEEK! im going to do all this until i know my stuffs at the back of my hands!!
esp tax! lol. can die!
afa!! i think i can handle it?? practice practice!!
fp?? practice makes perfecto!
claw!! i need to grasp the application technique
audit!! brain capacity need to be emptied to make way for this.

DECEMBER is coming!! my fav. mth of the year besides August!! wahaha
hope i'll meet santa or see him flying around on this sleigh outside my cabin window! hahah!
at least i'll be miles away frm home then! (:

2008-11-11T22:07:00.000-08:00

Time really flies. One moment in a newbie in sch, right now i'm even about to graduate.
In afew more months im gonna don army uniform and returning back home only on weekends! HAHA. At times im excited, at times im worried, at times i wish it wld quickly end. At least i've decided to enlist without any major concerns (:
hope everything goes well right up till enlistment! Jun/Jul 09.

I had a dream last night.. what wld i even yearn for when i get everything in life that one cld ever wish for.(Financially) Planned right up till my twenties alrd. what if one day its all mine.
to my surprise, a word came through my mind. 'so what!' theres still smth lacking.. smth...i just dont know.
oh well. crap aside! tml theres gonna be some financial planner quiz! damn it! im kinda like frantically reading through notes for the past few lectures!! cant let that cher stare at me like he always do anymore!! since i chose this elective, i might as well get some results out of it!

back to mugginggg!

the ultimate countdwn

2008-11-09T23:50:00.000-08:00

counting down to 13dec ((:
Okay. went back to work at gv ytd. everything din really change.
except for some of the ppl there. hahaa. thks for ur support guys!
trainees wld always be trainees? lol

Alright think its time for some "me" time. Too tired for anything.
Sandy beaches here i come!! (:

~logging off!

2008-10-27T12:10:00.000-07:00

Christmas christmas! when wld it come?? lol.
At least i know that i'll be able to catch some snow this christmas!!
haha. hopefully la. depend on the weather over there.
and some chao tao fu! haha. thats in canton. dont know how to spell its pin ying. LOL
anyways.. xiuguan ah! brace ehh BRACE!! lol. u know what i mean.

2008-10-24T23:20:00.000-07:00

How hard is it to create an empire?? its a piece of cake!
How hard is it to maintain an empire?? its FXXKING HARD!
been watching history channel recently, QIN SHI HUANG! LOL!!!!

I want to do it. i need TIME! thats the only thing that i wld nv have enough!
29...

Its driving me insane!!!

2008-10-23T22:50:00.000-07:00

Oh well.. weird ppl?? HECK CARE ALRD LAH! been meeting them at work recently! oh well. think ive made up my mind! '
reduce reduce reduce!
its time to let them work!! (:
DAVID!! PUT IN ALL UR BEST YA! KEEP IT COMING!!(thou none so far.dreads)haaaa.

2nd week of sch..
oh well. im nt adapting well to it! LOL. SHLD I PON LECS YESS? NO?? I DUNNO! for some lah!! afew more mths and i'll bid farewell to almost everyone and NGEE ANN! LOL!.
Think after NS i wld have forgotten almost 80% of them! LOL. oh yes! im so gonna be an auditor! the drive is there! before 29! ITS ALL THERE!!
*Fitting pieces in place.

2008-10-10T22:45:00.000-07:00

RETIREMENT!! Dont get it wrong ya. its retirement frm my part time career!!
Things are starting to fall right into my plan too soon.
After nxt week.....
-BACK TO SCH!
-Consider leaving ygm?
-Complete Karen's assignment
-Return to gv to pass some time or rather to watch MORE movies! (:
-unwind and train hard for napfa.
-meet up with qiuyyy!

I was kindda surprise when my mum told me to chill and to ease off working too much! LOL.
oh well.. 930 -945 for the coming weekend =((
i'm getting out of this real real real real real soon! cant stand it! lol..

2008-10-06T00:29:00.000-07:00

Last day at expo! Missed peeps! VICTOR!! EMILY!!! HAHAHAH!!
As usual. Chiong-ed towards the train station with victor after work!
AS USUAL again. Missed it.

Everything seem to happen so fast. My bounty for the entire assignment was rather.. WOOO!
HAHAHA! save save save zm!!
Sorry guys.. Cant pack with u guys n gals tml or rather later. :/

2008-10-05T00:05:00.000-07:00

BLESSING IN DISGUISE!!
What seem to be hopeless turned out unexpectedly pleasant! (:

-got to know new peeps!
-found someone who has a similar bad 'L' experience =/
-Earned quick bucks
-Learned more accessories..
-Improved charisma

Gonna miss these tiring and hectic days man! esp VICTOR! EMILY AND her PBF!! , Aunt Carol and etc lah! all the horny guys included man! HAHHA! lol! HUNTER!
Face it! afew more months left to Dooms day!

2008-09-27T00:02:00.000-07:00

12 hours.. and more 12 hours.. So used to waking up before the sun is up and returing when the streets are quiet. Whats the reward? MY BOUNTYY! afew more days to go..
Aching from top to bottom! =/

2008-09-24T00:25:00.000-07:00

A sleepy and tired person is a ANGRY person!!
Though everything went well, cant help feeling uneasy.

Having crappy food every night is torture!!
Imagine gulping noodles infront of my laptop while checking mails? suck.

Oh well, saw wk just now, polo shirt co. seem peaceful. As compared to my small lil corner.
Any single bit missing wld cost me afew hundreds! LOL

Cant wait for school to start. At least it gives myself the reason nt to work so many days!! LOL. Imagine working for 7days a week? 10 hours each?? its draining my life away!!

Shoo fly dont bother me!

2008-09-21T14:04:00.000-07:00

Alright.
Been there.
Nt done that. And nv ever will!

I'm nt gg there even for a thousand bucks! *Will consider if its ten thousand more??* HAHAH!

2008-09-17T01:20:00.000-07:00

Spoilt for choices. Welcome back to school zm! After like almost 6+2.5 months i've been away from school, everything has changed. Including my mentality. LOL. I need to set it straight. Back to 8.5 mths ago.. Identity must always be kept silent.
Oh well, have to choose between groups of friends for our upcoming class for the next semester, my last. One of them told me.. 'HIYA!! we'll club every wk if you're with us man!' The fact is that. Actually i only club once in a blue moon. im too busy for that. The other group would be rather 'steady'for project meetings.. which i prefer it to be flexible and own time own target. Tough choice huh. FYI: Girls to guys ratio... its either 3-1 or 2-1. Nv changes.
But im very sure that i wld not commit the grave mistake that when i just entered NP i year one which caused me to fall frm cloud nine.
Recently i've met this person. really seem to be able to read my mind. LOL! i needda learn tactics from this person man! HAHAH! Mind-reading... hmmmm.
Sick of the consistent ringing that my phone has gave me. Thk godness i have caller id. I want SOME PEACE!
I NEED THE LONG AWAITED break that i wanted 8.5 mths ago! At least for sure i know the hectic lifestyle that is
waiting for me after ns. The life of an auditor is ever changing and unexpected. Sacrifices. At least i have the
mindset to make it a point to make it even harder. before 29 yrs old. 360 degree. Most prob i may not be meeting
maybe im meeting. oh well.

2008-09-14T18:55:00.000-07:00

Oh wow! Finally someone can read my mind. LOL. At least he even knows what would i do next! Surprising man! Maybe i should stop analyzing stuffs using the opportunity cost worthiness mindset. ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY!
Feeling kindda tired right now from all the swimming in the morning =/ imagine 30 laps..lol
I needda get the drive back! Lifes getting exciting on this coming friday hopefully.. Its been damn quite some time since the last visit... (:
Time is running out for me.I need more time. I really need it!

2008-09-11T02:26:00.000-07:00

Everything or even anything is unexpected. So what for and why are we all planning stuffs? Oh well. But i'm gonna stick to my 'before 30yrs old goal'. Like what that particular friend of mine told me, there are afew so called 'rules' to follow..

Rule No.1
Never let emotions control you.
(Doesnt mean u have to be heartless)

Rule No.2
Consider opportunity cost seriously.

Rule No.3
Follow Principle of Prudence

Rule No.4
Dont be a KPO!

blarblarblarblar! LOL!

Oh well, stayed over at work till quite late today. LOL. Reached home at around 130am to be exact. 1st thing to be done was to charge my hp. It went dead after sending off its last msg. LOL.
Anyways.. I'm starting to really consider my previous decision.
After listening to what John and Bernard told me.. It was. really meaningful. Its not work related of course. Slowly bit by bit. Flashbacks that dates back to what happened 2 yrs ago(exactly around the time when i 1st joined gv) happy moments in gv and nt so er... moments outside of gv.. lol. then back to secondary school time. How did a student from the last class from the express stream in sec3 who seem almost hopeless and bound to be a potential dropout student, graduated with 4 As and got an R4 of 12 for his O levels. It all happened too fast, but the effects are everlasting.
Everything is going upwards, up Up UP! Oh well! gg to slp now! damn sleepy!! LOL.

Signing off!
Everything has to go.. Nth will be left behind. Running out of time.

2008-09-06T18:50:00.000-07:00

Guess wad?? Im staying at home almost half a day on SATURDAY!! LOL!! Super rare eh!
Wad to do.. Mentally im damn hungry. Physically i feel like puking.
Better get well soon zm! needda sort out some stuffs and do some cleaning up.

I've a plan. A brillant one in fact. =)

2008-09-04T22:47:00.000-07:00

Going. gone. Finally gonna leave Guangzhou. Yay!! needda settle some stuffs that has been KIV-ED for a long longgg time! Just had my last dinner treat from them and went to relax before heading back to the hotel to vid tape the 'jia man yue yuan' and pack my luggage. Just hope my condition will recover tonight man! Orelse the customs over here 'reject' me sia. LOL!

LOL! Im craving for sandwiches man! LOL!! growing horizontally instead of vertically!!
must go back and train for napfa man!! OCS OCS OCS! Airforce Airforce!!
No tyhoon tml pls...

2008-09-02T22:25:00.000-07:00

Checked out of enchanted. Checked into hoteli ordinary, the one in Panyu! The hotel which i 1st checked in when i just came here. The one with sauna, swimming pool, gym and such one lah. As usual man today, lunch treats..dinner treats and more alcohol. LOL! getting used to it alrd la. To be sucessful, one must learn the art of accomodation.

Shoulders are aching so much right now man. Anyways WHY CANT I FIND THAT JIA DUNNO WAD YUAN DVD!! The second sequel to the tang xin feng bao one. Instead im catching it on tv over here in this hotel! LOL
I need to buck up on my chinese & cantonese!

2008-09-01T23:58:00.000-07:00

Oh well. Check out in the morning. Handshakes again. Then another 2 hours drive to zhongshan.. Dunno whr is that thou. LOL. But the hotel im living in now is damn chio!! Feel so enchanting can!
Note to self.. stop dreaming and better wake up in 4 days time!

No mood to blog today man! Another day!! Ciao!!

2008-09-01T00:05:00.000-07:00

Alright. Just checked into ANOTHER again hotel in Chao Qing(dunno whether its the correct spelling! HECK!). It wasnt what i have expected la. In fact i find it worse then the other 2 i lived in. Cause the rest have no vacancy. Oh well. Woke up damn early at 6am for both ytd and today. Ytd was real busy. As usual meeting ppl, handshakes lunch and dinner treats. But today was slightly relaxed la. When to have bird feast.LOL BIRDS..! Then for dinner wahh. Felt damn bloated right now. Since day 1 i came here, feeeling bloated at the end of the day aint unusual.

I'm getting hook on to fast moving vehicles! =DD LOL!!! WEIRD!

Think i'm gonna check out of this hotel again tomorrow?? or maybe the day after tomorrow?? HAHA! I really dont know.

Damn tired signing offffff.

2008-08-30T00:30:00.000-07:00

Oh well. Just came back from late night shopping.. Its damn cheap i tell u! the service crew are damn polite too. What a direct contrast from the majority of the ppl there. :S Anyways gotta pack my luggage again. Kindda getting used to this anyways.

Will be checking out tml and head on to another hotel again! Quite fun lei.. diff environment every 2 days. LOL! throughout this stay in China we're like always moving from one hotel to another.. Hope the one im gonna check in tml have connection ba. Orelse i sure faint.LOL

At least i noe i'll be back in less than 10days =) cheer up zm! Anyways gotta thank ciqi and danielle for ytd. Thks yo girls! (:
Dun worry danielle u wont be left on the shelf! HAHAHAHHA! lol.

2008-08-28T23:50:00.000-07:00

zm u gotta wake up zm! dun fall into it again! its nt worth it..

Day 1

2008-08-28T00:10:00.000-07:00

Oh well. Woke up at 6am instead of the 430 as i planned.. Reached airport at around 720 then waited for 20 mins to check in.. so much for excellent service eh SIA. lol. In the end rushed through the check in gates and chiong to gate 21. The LAST gate in T3. its damn far la can. And FYI, SIA Flights would not wait for passengers who are late even for 5 minutes! But heng la. Managed to board the plane.

Reached G.Zhou around noon, being chauffeured around for meals(think of fried maggots...), plenty of handshakes =.='' then finally back to hotel. Nt bad eh the hotel, took a short tour of it. At least it has Jacuzzi, snooker, swimming/diving pool, gym, restaurant blarblarblarblar for a four star hotel man. Took a short nap then its dinner!! Being chauffeured to the restaurant again.. then plenty of handshakes again.. Then its time for drinks. lol. The conclusion of the dinner was that i drank more than wad i ate. whahaha! They were like 'gang le ta' 'gang le ta' LOL.. And its DAMN STRONG i tell u! 53% alcohol. lol. After around 2-3 cups i was like seh alrd. Heng i manage to keep myself sober! wahhaha! dad was also there drinking. LOL. Thou mum din really like him to do so..

Oh well gotta go to bed now. Tml will be gg off to another hotel in Dong Guan or smth dunno how to spell la. Gotta leave and check out from the hotel by 7am for this conference.. LOL!

Sorry guys unable to reply your tags.. The connection over here din allow me to do so. Glad at least my laptop works here man!

Pack pack!!

2008-08-27T00:32:00.000-07:00

Followed dad along for the whole day from money changing to buying luggage bags. He just seem to be unsatisfied with the old luggage bag i have? Oh well. took a power nap for the whole of my afternoon and started packing my luggage at night.

Visited Bro Gerald at around 8 plus. He seem kinda troubled..hmm.. Oh well bro. dont think so much la. Felt kinda guilty.. Cos i was supposed to meet my adorable PA for dinner and movies or chatting session tonight. But i cancelled it =/ Anyways felt better after i scrubbed my dad's WISH. Damn dirty,dusty,muddy, or whatever u can call it. Both of us din really have the time to spare for washing it. But at last its sparkling clean (: Spent 1 1/2 hours on it man!

Btw gotta thank Gerald and gang for ytd's ktv session.. took me on a surprise. WAHAH!
shall upload the pictures once i get it. (:
At least i got to know better on how my dad's WISH could perform. (:
I'm nt gonna bring it out unless its absolute necessary..

Kindda getting used to late night supper but of course i'll put in double after that to keep up with my standards. Vodka vodka.... really wanna be drunk. But i simply cant get drunk? maybe its due to the 'training' that dad has gave me since young? HAHAHA!

Leaving for Guangzhou then shanghai then who knows where else?? excited? anticipating?
Actually im looking forward to next semester! New classmates.. tougher modules.. sounds challenging ehh?
Shall treat it as a break and get stuffs sorted out when im back!

Oh yea... REFRAIN from contacting me during this period as im really nt sure if that IDD1515 really works. LOL. Helping u guys to save money ehh! HAHA!

Okay shall force myself to slp now. Gotta wake up at 430am ltr.

This question just happen to pop up in my mind lately.. Think its from some kindda movie or smth..
Girl-Is there a cure for missing someone?
Guy-Yes..
Guy-It getting to see the person you miss.
Girl-What if you dont have the chance to see/meet up with the person??
Guy-As time goes by.. The person would be part of your memories.

Meaningful ehh? LOL.

2008-08-22T11:28:00.000-07:00

Shall make this post a quick quick one! Cause my lappy is left with only 5% battery life. Lazy to charge it cause im leaving for sentosa very very soon!! Sun is hard to catch these days man! wanna have the tan i used to have and the physic!

Oh well! my memory is failing me again! met afew of my old old REAL old time friends but i actually FORGOT their names!! LOL oh well! im getting older!!

How i wish everything would just slow down for me! everything is so fast paced!! i cant even enjoy life to the fullest thou i have like 2 months +++ holidays! Instead, im looking forward to sch next sem! will be meeting a completely new bunch of ppl from the other semester!! LOL! think by then i must be counting dwn to ns. then after ns, back to the corporate world climbing the corporate ladder. Sounds creepy eh! but i kindda like it!! WAHAHA! but as i have always known.. sacrifices are necessary. Mum has been like pestering me to pack my luggage since monday and i've yet to do so.. I really dunno wad to expect next week man! i'll be gone for 10 plus plus days cos everything is so blur to me now! so many conferences so many meetings! oh my god!! i really dunno.. i really dunnooo.

Ytd i was really damn shit while working. But for some reasons, i also dunno why. It just came on before i worked and those long-winded ppl i met over the counters drove me spiralling dwn further. I really need a break! but how?? i cant just leave everything behind and disappear right! oh well laptop's batt alarm is going off.

signing off!.

is this what i want?

2008-07-18T22:00:00.000-07:00

Posh cars such as merc audi bmw or even maserati as compared to the current toyota wish? the feeling of having a mpv and posh cars for my ride is really a whole new feeling. But there is a great price to pay for all such super duper lifestyle. Since late last year, people of different walks of life entered my life, followed by their lifestyle. Imagine taking wheels of ur buddy's subaru late at night to test driving a new audi or merc slr. Its smth like one day u're a plain thinking being, the next minute u're tossed up to the 72th floor having a bird's eye view of everything thats below you. Or u can kinda call it a 'preview' of being sucessful. However, if i choose to be on this route, i know i will lose alot of stuffs that i have right now. But i'm sick and tired of living a simple life that i have been living throughout. Even when it comes to my ride, i wun even consider to rev as it will increase fuel consumption and such crap. This wasnt what i wanted when i took up my driving licence. 2yrs more for me to make up my decision before going down the long winding road with no way of turning back.

its never too late to realise

2008-07-04T17:12:00.000-07:00

Saw something wayy too interesting..

"On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was thenplump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.This was the scene of ten years ago.The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid,I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.Dew came into my life.It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me frombehind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.Dew said, You are the kind of man who best draws girls eyeballs. Herwords suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wifesaid, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn t help doing so.I moved Dew's hand aside and said, You go to select some furniture,O.K.? I ve got something to do in the company. Obviously she wasunhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At themoment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matterhow mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly,she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew’sbody. This was the means of my entertainment.One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce, whatwill you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word.Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away fromher. I couldn t imagine how she would react once she got to know I wasserious.When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we livetogether. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I ve got somethingto tell you, I said.She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.Suddenly I didn t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her knowwhat I was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised a serious topic calmly.She didn t seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? . I m serious. I avoided her question. This so-calledanswer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!At that night, we didn t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardlygive her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which statedthat she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. Sheglanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart.The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn t want anything from me,but I was supposed to give her one months time before divorce, and inthe month s time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and shedidn t want him to see our marriage was broken.She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me.I nodded and said, I remember . You carried me in your arms , she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.I told Dew(BITCH) about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly andthought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less mademe feel uncomfortable.My wife and I hadn t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don t tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on mychest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn t looked at this intimate woman carefully for along time. I found she was not young any more. There were some finewrinkles on her face.On the third day, she whispered to me, The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vaguer.On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as,where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc.I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.I didn t tell Dew about this.I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, All mydresses have grown fatter. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not becauseI was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart.Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it s time to carry mum out. He said.To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom,through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step.Our son had gone to school. She said, Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.I held her tightly and said, Both you and I didn t notice that our lifewas lack of such intimacy.I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won t divorce. I'm serious.She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn t value the details of life, not becausewe didn t love each other any more. Now I understand that since Icarried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into cry. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out everymorning until we are old."

Of course in the end its a good ending lahh. =)

Just any typical wednesday..

2008-06-18T16:40:00.000-07:00

Work lately have come to a standstill way till its sooooooooo UNBEARABLY BORING!!! The only reply i receive from asking ard for work wld be NO! NO! NO!...
Maybe that explains how i get to make a post here. haha

Really miss sch! nt the lectures and tutorials thats for sure! the canteen food!!! HAHAH! CHEAP N NICE =)
Cant wait for this to end man!
Once it ends.. WAHAHHAHA! SENTOSASENTOSASENTOSA!GYM!SLPING IN THE CINEMA!AND WADEVER THAT IS FUN MAN!! (Really miss the times when my gv buddies are ard.. think of racing dwn the highway! Wooo!)

OKAY! back to thinking what to do for the remaining 2 assignments before its too late. Boss want to have a look at it 2weeks before we leave =/
Shall kill brain cells till 6pm.

dreamss & more dreamsss..

2008-05-27T20:36:00.000-07:00

1kinda getting used to waking up EARLY at 645am on weekdays. But come on..HOW WLD WANT TO WAKE UP THAT EARLY IF HE HAS A CHOICE!!
as usual went to have a steaming hot shower to keep myself awake then switch on the tv, munching whatever i could find. Was getting kind of sian from watching the repeats of Ch55 la so turned over to this damn interesting channel. ch16 Europes richest people. i was like OMG!! MOTIVATIONAL SHOW ehh! how i wish i could earn BIG BUCKS like them.
oh well, LO just told me to improve on our idea. Gotta chiong and get it done asap.

Typical Monday!

2008-05-26T15:47:00.000-07:00

MONDAY BLUES! MONDAY BLUES!! time over here(my workplace) seem to take years for it to barely nudge.
As usual, sitting at the back by myself with nothing to do and no supervision may appeal to some. BUT that would
affect my grades! SHIT LAH! when would this all end..
Counting down to the fateful day, 1 AUGUST!!!!
WELL, THINK POSITIVE!! 2 hours plus till 6pm!! zm tahan tahan you can do it!!